NEW.

**coming soon**
new posts.
new look.
new year!
Ring in the new year with the all new Scattered Thoughts.
coming January 2012.
IN THE MEANTIME, PLEASE NOTE THAT THERE'S A MESS. A BIG MESS. 

simple beauty [the re-invention of myself: part one - the beginning].

See that the girl in the picture above? She's beautiful. Stunning.

Gorgeous freckles and pale skin; dark hair and captivating eyes. She's wearing white lace and laying in a bed of leaves. Everything about this picture I love.

(and I'm sooo sooo sorry I don't have credit for this picture!).

And her makeup is either non-existent or very minimal. And it's beautiful. 

I want to be beautiful whether I have on nothing or thick, clumpy mascara. 

I want to wear whatever I want and feel confident.

I want to be charming and cheerful and lovely.

And I want to be me. 

Stay tuned for more re-invention posts. Or maybe re-discovering posts.

Re-discovering and uncovering who I really am. 

Who I am.

- me -

my blogity blog.

I'm sitting here.
It's 2:13 A.M.
A rather large cup of Juicy Juice is nearby.
I'm sleepy.
Netflix is playing on my laptop.
And I'm sort of discontent with my blog.
It's not very cute.
Rather lame.
And...*sigh*
I'm just not sure.
Any suggestions?
(I feel like I always do this post every once and awhile).

If I could be anywhere....

If I could be anywhere else but here (which is, at the moment, starring at the ugly mess of snow covering my part of the earth) I would choose to be in California. Los Angeles, California to be exact. I'd be sipping some kind of iced coffee from Starbucks or some other cute little coffee shop. I'd have on huge, bug eyed sunglasses and a large, floppy hat. I'd carry a large beach tote with sunscreen and my bathing suit inside. Walking beside me would be one of my closest friends, dressed casually and similar to me, carrying her own iced beverage. We'd walk and talk and window shop. We'd laugh and sing and be happy. We'd end up at the beach and meet our boyfriends (our handsome, charming boyfriends) and do all kinds of fun things like build sandcastles and surf and snap pictures. We're all seventeen, it's the summer before we graduate. Life is blissful and fantastic. Love is oozing from every ounce of air. We're young and carefree and happy....

But then I look outside. It's gloomy and I'm alone. Next to me is my guitar I can't play. My room is a rather messy site and poorly lit at that. Nobody is texting me back and I feel sort of tired, but not the sleeping kind of tired. I'm depressed, I guess you could say. Depressed, sad, and sick of my current state. I need change: change of weather, change of scenery, and change of lifestyle. I'm sick of trying to act a certain way. I'm sick of waiting weeks for my old best friends to talk to me. I'm sick of starring from a distance at you-know-who. I'm sick of having nothing to do some days. I'm sick of snow and coats and boots. I'm sick of the same old drama between everyone. I'm sick of never being a good enough Christian.

I just need to make things happen, instead of sitting around waiting for it to happen to me. Most of the greatest moments of my life, I had to work to get there. I had to face some fear. I had to overcome a challenge or stand up in the mist of awkward glances and feeling like an outsider. I haven't done that in awhile, guys and quite honestly? It's about time I start.

Any advice?

What to do, what to do.

I must admit I've been afraid to post anything lately, due to the hype my last post might have given. I have such high hopes, I'm just not sure where to start. A new header? A new color scheme? I don't have any exact plans, but I do want something to change...I just want my blog to be, well, perfect and I don't know how I can make that happen. Any suggestions? Leave a comment, it'll make my day :)

What if....

What if I made my blog something you absolutely adored?
Something filled with entrees that were more then just typing up my plans for the weekend?
Everything was beautiful from the layout and header to the words that filled the page?
Something you looked forward to reading while drinking a cup of a tea and criss-crossing your legs?
Something that filled you up with hope and inspired you...as well as something that made you laugh?
Colorful with the words of my heart, my personality shining threw.
Where it was more then Wednesday Photography.
Where it was more then my obsession with young men.
Where it was more then sloppily putting together entrees, just for the sake of posting something.
Then, my dear readers, maybe my blog would become successful.
You'd take a little extra time to read my thoughts.
My blog would be more than just an online diary, it'd be a place you'd like to come to.
It wouldn't just be a teeny-bopper blog for the young and un-sophisticated.
That would just be something.
Hopefully a something that will happen very soon.
Hopefully.

Well....

I feel my blog is very boring.
Plain.
Nothing interesting to write about.
If I were somebody else, I probably wouldn't like this blog very much.
Why?
Because it's horrible.
I'm sitting here in discust.
I'm ready to change it up a little.
Not sure how.
But I will.
Don't worry.
I will.
<3 peace.

I need some help.

What do you think of this? Do you like it better then my current header or do you like the one I have better? I feel like my blog is sort of boring and I'm not exactly sure what to do about it. On my last few posts, I've had zero comments and that makes me sad because I love comments. I feel like my blog is too cutesy and needs to be more modern and chic, but I'm not one of those people who can mess around with the template and know what they're doing. What do you guys think?

new, new, new!

I just want to make this little fact known, I hate my blog. I don't like the background or the font or anything, so guys if you have any websites that have really clean, nice backgrounds for blogger please let me know! I never seem to be happy with the appearence of things on here and that makes me upset. Also, my blog entrees are becoming meaningless and stupid and so for that I appologize. I really should put some more effort into each entree insted of having lots of little, stupid ones. Don't you guys think? uhhhh... anyways, I just wanted to say that and hopefully (HOPEFULLY!) there will be a better and more improved version of my blog!! Maybe even a new tittle cuz I don't like the one I have. Blegh....